Thursday, April 16, 2015

Honoring Tenderness: a collection.

Feathered Nest Necklace. American Turquoise. Conch rose and dewdrops. Draped chain.

Hanging Garden Earrings, Large

Hanging Garden earrings, small.

Jacaranda Seed Slip Posts.

Abundance Necklace. Mother of Pearl. Quartz. Lunaria Plant.

In the



Sunday, April 5, 2015

Begin Again.

Driving and crying

All the way home from Oakland
because the young engraver you so thoroughly vetted (i.e. know nothing about beyond his stellar work)
totally ditched your lesson.

This was the day in which you were going to invest money to learn the use of your Lindsay Graver,
the one you've had since your first mother's day three years ago.
The one that is wasting under your leather bench,
the one that would make life so much easier.
Three years of some day

You get home and you call your mentor, chin wobbling.
You ask if she knows anyone who can help and as always she has answers,

You send a few emails.
Panic hovers for some reason, still.
Your mentor texts you an Instagram picture of the guy who was supposed to teach you today,
half naked behind his girlfriend. Posted this hour.
You feel stupid and suddenly old.

All of this resistance, all of these little pressures,
the doorway.

You gather the manuals.
Your husband reads their Greek and translates them into English.

You are all plugged in. 
Hug his neck, that kind and patient man.
Thank him for this gift given three years ago.

Haltingly at first, you engrave.
Get bolder.
See a ballerina dancing on a crescent moon.
Let it be chicken scratch.
Let it look kinda rough,
with a twisted foot and a crab hand,
please let those things be.
Let yourself get out from underneath the critic
long enough to play.

That smile?
Hard won.
That joy?
Beginner's joy.

Suddenly hungry,
suddenly uncorked.

All of this to say: when things fail, when resistance threatens to keep everything caged
just keep breathing, keep trying and keep taking baby steps relentlessly
and despite.
Don't let things not going the way you think they should keep you from
doing what you've longed dreamed.

Always and forever,


Thursday, April 2, 2015

The Blossoming


is full this afternoon.

It has blossomed,
like our peachy roses,
like my son's flushed and fevered cheeks…

I listed everything this afternoon as he napped
and then spent hours fussing over him and being cuddled.
Now he watches Winnie the Pooh and I write, trying so hard to communicate what sometimes feels so easy.
I have in the past steamed out work and listings like mad: meaningful, friendly work that just flowed…
now everything feels precious, "My God, I made seven pairs of earrings!!" like I 
built a house. A tiny, delicately-strong bejeweled house.

Whew. I ought to make myself some iced tea.

It's the height of clear beautiful days here right now in Northern California,
sweet and frightfully dry, the sun giving us a bit more day to savor.
One year of water left, tick tick tick.

In every area of life the lovely and the hard
are married and so precariously, lovingly balanced.
Or not at all balanced.

I have beauty to share today and that's enough.
More than enough.


Thursday, March 12, 2015

"Close Your Eyes….Open your Hand…."

What joy the above words made in my heart,
even writing them makes me smile.

Mostly my mom said them.
The unexpected.

I was good at closing my eyes and opening my hands as a cup…
I was good at getting.

Somehow along the line I lost that trust.
Playmates put bugs in my hand.
Smiles hid sharp parts that hurt.
Experience not as advertised:
Please read fine print.

Sometimes I shrink away
because life doesn't always put a sweet thing in your palm.
Sometimes it's pain
sometimes it's loss
maybe overwhelm

It takes bravery to receive in a world that is equal parts
joy and shit.

It takes a courageous heart to say 'yes' to things, 
sometimes even to getting out of bed in the morning,
to putting on pants.

This necklace is a prayer for your bravery,
for your blossoming.
After all these years I think the key is just to show up.
Be willing, present
To get bigger 
and Wider and let light into the cracks.
Your armor can wait:
today let's receive instead

Watercolor and enamel on copper hand. Robin's egg blue on the reverse side.
Fired just past sugar stage for a wonderful dappled texture.
Triple layer sterling silver hydrangea.

In the Metal Shop later.


Monday, March 9, 2015

Homage to the Night Skies

Labradorite, dragonfly wing, Star Lassos. Sterling Silver and Brass. 

Double star studs. Sterling silver.

Lone Star Spells. Aventurine. Amazonite. Sterling silver and brass.

Oak leaf and Kyanite Magic Spells. Shooting Star. Chain cascade.

Variscite and hammer engraved spider web spells. Impending spring! Chrysoprase. Pink sea shell. 

Friends, Orion turned three last weekend.

His incredible trinity of years on earth and the impending spring have been 
lifting me out of an exhausted funk.

He has been so joyful lately, so willful and astounded. Loving and stubborn.
I've been on my toes. Broken record, I've been doing too much. It's like balance has become 
the thing, all of the time. "I'm working on it," I say.

When the studio door closes behind me the scale tips and meaningful silence cradles me
and smooths the edges. I appreciate motherhood more for the slight distance.
I have things to tell him when I'm done.

Sometimes he comes into the studio with me and we tap on leather together. He listens to my instructions of where he can go and what he can do. It's no longer like the studio is only mine, he touches my life in there. This is very much okay with me.

Most pairs in this incredible round of spells are my celebration of him, my greatest love. My star,
Monsieur Petite Etoile.

When I make from this place of personal inspiration, this full place of utter adoration, real magic happens, beyond the prayers, beyond the medicine certain plants and energies impart to the metals.

I am really excited to share not just the elements and stones in these special earrings,
but excited to share little pieces of my mama heart, the second heart my body built when Orion was born.

Plucked from the night skies and

later today.


Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Tomorrow's Magic.

Wing and a Prayer Magic Spell Earrings. Kingman Turquoise. Dragonfly wing. Birch leaf. 

Real Music Necklace. Labradorite. Jacaranda Seeds.

Simple Everyday Copper Fern Fronds.

Singular Magic: Jacaranda Edition.

Wing and a Prayer Amber Edition. Bird feather. California Fern. Juicy amber.

All in the 


by noon, Pacific time.